All these are written to people anonymously.
1) Today I was flipping through all our memories and i realized that i don’t think i’ll ever truly be able to let you go. you’re kind of just a part of me. then i got to thinking about how i felt about this and it just enrages me because i don’t know you anymore. we don’t even speak anymore. it’s unfair really, how you treated me. you broke me and you didn’t even care. to this day you’re just living your life with no consequence at all whatsoever, and i’m the one with a broken heart living in regret. i’ve never been belittled so many times in my life, yet i feel so stupid because i just let you. i let you walk all over me and do whatever you want. but it’s because i loved you. i loved you with all my heart and you just stomped all over it. you ruined me really. i lost who i was because of you. i lost my friends, i lost myself, i lost a lot of things because of you, yet still you denied me the one thing i ever wanted from you. i will never be the same because of you, ya know. the sad part is i can not remember a single day when i felt okay with you. i just remember tears streaming down my face all the time. how could you just watch that happen and know that you were the reason? it beats me every time how horrible you were. but yet, the only thing i can ever say is “i am in love with you”. sad isn’t it, how someone could treat someone so poorly, yet still have someone completely wrapped around their finger. i hope you know i want nothing to do with you anymore. it just hurts too badly…i guess you’ll never understand what you really did, but good for you i guess, because i don’t think you’d be able to live with yourself. PS i still love you.
2) I went into it thinking we were no match, thinking this was just a little fling, thinking we weren’t even compatible. but look at us now, you make me smile. i have gotten so close to you in so little time and i’m happy to say that you’re my best friend. i would do absolutely anything for you and i would take a bullet for you. when things are bad i can turn to you for a smile and everything feels great again. you give me something to look forward to everyday and you are such an inspiration. your strength to overcome all that you’ve been through truly inspires me and you’re such a great person it trips me out. i have never met anybody like you. i love you so much. thank you for being so amazing. we have many memories to come.
3) you’re not only my best friend, but you’re my sister. for a while there i was getting really worried that we were drifting, but who am i kidding? we can never drift apart. you really are my sister. i love you so much and i would do anything for you. you make me laugh so hard and i am so comfortable around you. i wish we got to hang out more often though. i wish you made time for me. sometimes it seems like you don’t really care all that much but again, who am i kidding? we’re sisters, and that will never be broken. thank you for being around for 3 years. it means so much to me.
4) i just really want to say i’m sorry. i know i’ve been a horrible whatever to you and i feel awful. i want you to know that sometimes my life gets in the way and i lose my way. but it doesn’t mean i don’t love you and i don’t appreciate all that you do. i’ve put you through so much and it makes me feel awful. if i could, i would take it all back but i don’t know how to make it up to you anymore at this point. i guess maybe i have the rest of my life to, but i’m so sorry for causing you so much stress and depression these last 5 years. i never meant to. just know that i will always love you. not only for what you do but for who you are. you’re the only person that’s really ever been any stability in my life. i know we fight and i’m always disappointing you, but i hope you know that was never my intention. but i do love you….i’m just so sorry.
5) i hate to say it, but you’re just really not that great of a friend and it’s taken me this long to realize. you never really understand what i feel and always make me feel stupid for it. you always make me feel like i’m doing the wrong thing and, come on, you like your boyfriends more than you care about me. i’ve been such a good friend to you through all your shit and still you invite your “guy friends” (who are actually kind of asshole hoodlums) everywhere before me. i’m pretty over being an afterthought with you when i’ve been so damn loyal to you. i mean, you even haven’t tried to hang out and you always bail on our plans. i’m over it. i love you, but i’m over being an afterthought. you can call me when you begin to miss me, but until then, i’m done trying.
6) i mean, i guess i don’t know where our relationship stands. my whole life you’ve been so terrible to me and i could never understand it. all i’ve ever wanted was your approval and you still deny it to me. you’re a little bit better now, but i’m just scared of you now. i want to love you and feel close to you but i just can’t anymore. and i don’t think you even realize how cruel you actually were. i love you so much but you’ll never know what you really did. you messed me up actually. maybe i’ll get past it, i hope i do. because you’re too important to me….but i don’t know if things can ever truly be fixed.
7) who are you? that’s what i feel every time i see you. you don’t even know me anymore, the person who should know me the most. you haven’t been to a single important event in my life in god knows how long. i’ve only seen you twice this year and it was because i had to. do you realize i want nothing to do with you because of how absent you’ve been? where have you even been? i just feel like you care more about your girlfriends than you do me. which is sad. that is something i should never feel about you of all people. but i do. and all i ever wanted was for you to love me and be there. i guess that was too hard to ask.